Aww thank you so much :) I feel I’ve really grown, so I’m glad it shows!
My man haha well technically we haven’t made things official, but it’s clear its on the horizon, so for all intents and purposes he’s my man lol. He is going to school in hopes of becoming a pediatric neurosurgeon, he’s trilingual (english, spanish, and french), and we met at work (which means I get to see him be great with kids whenever we work together). He’s a little taller than me, dark hair, brown eyes, and as he puts it he’s a “light skinned mexican” lol. He’s a total gentleman, my family loves him, and I am more impressed by him every time I see him. He’s taught me that it’s ok to let go of expectations and just live in the moment, but still be thinking about the future. He calms my racing thoughts and I feel happy and safe and cared for whenever I’m with him. Despite his busy schedule with work and school, he still makes as much time for me as possible (helps that we don’t live too far apart). We can talk about anything, serious or joking around, and I don’t think I’ve smiled so much in a long time. And that’s about all I’ve got for now without any specific questions to go off of! haha :)
Perhaps you are right, my misguided anon! However, I have an alternate and more likely scenario, if you’ll hear me out:
Perhaps I have not been in a serious relationship for nearly seven months. In that time, it is highly likely that I have healed myself and moved on entirely, and therefore do not give a flying fuck what he thinks, does, says, etc. Perhaps because of that, I feel that I am emotionally ready to accept love again in my life from myself and others. Do I still have your attention? I hope I haven’t lost you because this is where it gets crazy:
Maybe, just maybe I have finally met someone who I feel deserves my heart. Maybe I have met a man who I care immensely for and who cares deeply for me. Maybe I have found someone with a soul that recognizes mine. Maybe I have started a fulfilling relationship with a caring, intelligent, driven, funny, thoughtful, handsome, incredible man who makes me feel so wonderfully happy and alive that I feel I need to share some of those feelings with the world. Maybe, just maybe, this is my fucking blog and I will talk about my motherfucking life as much as I goddamn please and you can go sit on a fucking cactus.